Jordan has never quite fit in. He lives with a crippling fear of doors, he has this cringing need to bury dead things, and his friendship with Jaylene Cooper died a slow, painful death after he refused to date her.

When he’s given the advice to find someone normal to copy, it’s a no brainer for Jordan to choose Chase. Chase is popular, knows about Jordan’s quirks, and has a girlfriend. He’s also Jaylene’s brother. But there’s a big problem. The more time Jordan spends with Chase the more he realizes he doesn’t want to be like Chase, he wants to kiss him.

But his new feelings are the least of his worries. There’s a killer loose. And when the bodies start dropping, one with a similar scar as his own, Jordan becomes the prime suspect. As he begins to unravel the crime, it becomes clear that he’s not the only one with secrets. Haunted by a past he doesn’t remember, Jordan has to face what lies behind the door before he becomes the next victim.

One moment changes everything.


Don’t miss this emotional tale of a boy who faces his worst nightmare-snow-all for a boy he doesn’t even think he likes. Fans of Fifteen Hundred Miles from the Sun by Jonny Garza Villa and Adam Silvera’s The History of Us will enjoy this story about a boy who ultimately finds strength in family, friends, and love.

Noah aka NOS2321: Gamer. Weeb. Up-and-coming rock star. And gay. Noah believes in happily ever after. That belief gets tested when he falls for Evan Santiago.

Evan aka XES6969, believes in sacrificing yourself for those you love. Learning NOS’s identity hadn’t been his fault. Except he carries the lie which begins to fester, trapping him into silence. When a stray football brings them together, Evan no longer wants to keep silent. And when he learns that Noah is interested too, he takes a chance at love, risking everyone he’s tried to protect, including himself.